This past two months have been one crazy ride. I have felt so many things, learned so many things, struggled with so many things, changed so many things, and I am still in this internal storm. It began some time during the winter break. What "It" is, is still not fully known. Things I do know. Each day is a new adventure. Each moment is to be fully embraced and enjoyed for what it is. I am at a crossroad in my life I believe. I am going to be 46 years young in just a few days . . . My first child is going to graduate this year and somehow she is now 18 years old. Where did those years go? My Son is now 15 and learning to be independant . . . it seems like he was just a little guy a couple days ago. And my youngest son is now 13, a teenager with more energy that I know what to do with. Many days I feel totally inadequate to be a parent of three teenagers . . . but guess what, each day is a new day full of work, joy, challenge, and learning. I have been married 23 + years, and I do not know how that happened eather. What was I doing all the time during those years? I know I was there, and I was busy, and I was blessed and I am thankful . . . but those years seem to have passed so fast, or at least faster than I care to admit or acknowledge . . . I do not know which. Then there is all the stuff happening inside of me . . . some may call it midlife crisis . . . I am choosing to call it Man O Pause . . . or something of the soart. I am also challenged by the fact that as things go, I am over half way through with this life. That has been an amazing thought to try to process. I remember being a kid, and I remember a few days in college . . . I remember getting married . . . . I remember being at each of my childerns births. I remember so many things, I just do not know how we got here so fast . . . I know the sun came up and the sun set on each day. I remember I slept and woke each day. But, wow . . . I will be celebrating a birthday in just a few days from now, and I want to learn to embrace each remaining day fully and enjoy the rest of this life. This is a crazy post, but it is where I am at this moment. . . .
I am a blessed and Thankful man. I Love Jesus, and Know he has a plan for me in the balance of my life.
Peace
