July 15, 2011

Today is Friday . . . July 15, 2011. My son turned 15 yesterday, and Harry Potter had its opening for the final show . . . I am excited that my kids were able to go to the midnight showing last night . . . it sounds like they had a wonderful evening. I am blessed that my family is able to enjoy life . . . I am amazed at the time I live in . . . I know I am blessed and I am thankful. Many in our world do not have my life, and I know they feel blessed and thankful with the life they have . . .

Just the other day I was reading an article about a lady whose husband cut her nose and ears off because she ran away from his abuse . . . and in the article I was moved to tears to believe that such a thing could happend . . . and she still has a positive outlook on life . . . here is the link if you are interested . . . http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/lanow/2010/08/afghan-girl-whose-nose-was-cut-off-meets-with-doctors.html

What is holding me back?? I just do not know . . . I can not blow past this 300 lb wall . . . it is time for me to move . . . track, walk, go to the gym and blow past this wall . . . I am a thin man traped in my large body . . . I want out of this space that I have trapped myself in . . . it is crazy at times, but it is what is my life for this moment . . .

What is your largest learning issue at this momen? I am learning on several fronts . . .

how to be a good DAD and parent to my children . . .

How to be a loving, kind Husband to my wonderful wife of 23 years

how to be a thin me . . . to be the slim I am created to be . . . hahaha but really tears stream down my face at times

I also have a new friend in my life

A Canon DSLR Rebel XTi . . .

I am on the grow when it comes to photoing . . . I am blessed and thankful for this new friend . . . get ready to enjoy some new photos in the coming days and you are invited to stop by my flickr at: http://www.flickr.com/photos/11908041@N00/

know you are loved and prayed for today . . .

peace

Night time binge eating . . .

No purging from this guy . . . but eating at night when I am not hungry for food . . . but hungry for other things . . . well lets just say not counting these points . . . and that this past few days or weeks, I have returned to my old foolish life robbing ways . . . Wake up me . . . GET UP me . . . return to the new road that leads to health and life . . . Wow . . . I am hard on me at times . . . but I am telling you . . . why do we return to old ways that take us places we do not want to go . . . why do we default to the foolish so easily . . . Back on the wagon today . . . Looking for love in all the wrong places has grown my waist line and not lead me to my hearts greatest desire . . . so you know where I am at in my mind, heart and soul currently . . . Boy o boy . . . Hershey's Chocolate does taste so good, and puts my mind in a spin . . . but it does not fill the need or answer the call . . . One step at a time Sweet Jesus . . . you know when I taste and see that the Lord is good . . . it fills my love need and does not bulge my waist line . . . Need me some more Jesus, and less Lays . . . Can I get an Amen up in this house . . .  Someone picking up what I am laying down . . . Come up out of the slavery of Egypt and enter into the Promise land . . . Get on up . . .