my mind now . . .

Okay, so I have not posted in some time . . . for that I feel kinda bad, I love to post, I love to think, I love to write, I love to contemplate, I love to ruminate, I love to capitulate, I love to resonate, I love so many things that involve thought and interaction with self as well as with others, and when I do not do what I love, I kinda feel bad about it, because I love it so much . . .

So here is the deal, again with much self improvement going on . . . So money has been a problem in my life much of my life,  not that I do not have enough, or that I want something out there that I can not have . . . but controlling the money I have, and using it or making it do what I want it to do . . . it comes down to self discipline . . . and decisions.  I do not like to tell me no . . . but often no is the best thing to say.  I am not a spend-o-halic or nothing . . . just not disciplined.  Diana and I are learning as we take this Financial Peace University class taught by Dave Ramsey.  He is not perfect, nor am I, but he does have some great ideas on how to make money behave . . .

I want to read more this year, and for that to happen, I must hit the off button on the remote, and pick up the book.  I have books, I have the chair, I have the light, and I really do have the time . . . again back to the idea of discipline, or self discipline.  Now mind you I love to read, and I enjoy the experience in my head as the characters are developed in my mind . . . it is so enjoyable, but I let the TV rule me at times . . . "boo on that", I say.  To the book I go and off on the trial I trod . . .

Big boy is not what I want my legacy to be, nor do I want the up charge for the larger box at the end of the story . . . nor do I want to hasten the end of said story . . .  I am working out again at the gym which is wonderful . . . now back to that self discipline thing,  Eat Less, move more . . . is a motto I must repeat . . .
Well there you go, Tim in a moment for the moment . . . I miss blogging, and I will return and share with you the story that is me . . . peace

Balloon Day!

Balloon Day!
Originally uploaded by Amanda *Bake It Pretty*

i need me a balloon day . . . these are great balloons, and the smile is awesome.

red balloon

red balloon
Originally uploaded by connie till

Here is another flickr find that is great . . . did you ever see the movie called the red balloon?

Vintage / Retro

Vintage / Retro
Originally uploaded by Kelly J. Petersen (Photography)

Balloons are wonderful, and this is a great photo with real old world quality . . . peace

Turned upside down . . .

FLIP . . . did not see this one coming . . . but here I am all out of sorts.  Having the most incredible odd feelings ever in my life about my life.  To say that I kinda do not like where I am currently, may prove to be an understatement.  However with this being said . . . I believe I am here, now, in this place for a reason.  I am hear to learn something about me, about life, and about God.  I just know it.  I did not choose to be here, but I am here.  Some of the greatest things I have ever learned about me and life, I learned in these type of circumstances.  I just pray that I have faith, and trust . . . to be able to learn and grow through even this day, place, feeling, what ever the heck it really is, or really where I am. 

So really

Can you believe I found my pin drive. Yep, found it at home. That makes me feel really bad. I am feeling bad on several fronts. Life has a way of kicking you in the butt at times. I guess this is my time for a little but kicking. Well, that is my story for tonight. Peace

Thoughts on the run

Sitting here today realizing that I lost my pin drive last week. I believe I may have left it in my room here in the school at a teachers desk. I asked the teacher if I left it, they said they do not remember seeing it, however someone else who works in the room remembers something about it. So now what to do. Bottom line I lost it, and possibly someone else found it. Finders keepers right? I am bummed out that I lost it, it had photos, info, addresses, all my s bool saved files. I am so bummed out. How do you feel when you lose stuff? I get physically sick when I lose something that I value. I do not have many things that I value- my pens, my camera and photos, my writing, and now my portable pin drive. I will look my house over again, but I think it may be gone . . . Now on to the truth that I believe stuff, clutter kills. I am bummed out wiu the clutter in my life. My office is full of junk and i want to clean it and purge the trash.
I have two more days and i will finish my 365 project. This past month has been the most difficult. I am not very creative, I love balloons, but I tried to use many things during the year. It is cool to look at my year in photos. I have been blessed beyond belief and I am thankful. I will blog again soon: