BMW dreaming on a TATA nano budget . . .

Here I am at school today . . . fourth block, a few moments away from going to the gym. Thinking about life a little. I dream of one day owning a BMW. I had the joy of test driving a BMW 530 this past weekend. I also bought my birthday gift - a key ring from BMW. It is nice and I hold my work keys on it. Now on to the real thoughts for the day . . .
Do not create debt . . . no matter what . . . fight hard to pay for things as you go . . . and do not go into health debt either, it is hard work to get out from under the weight.  It seems like I am hyper focused on my weight . . . however it is not the weight I am looking at as much as the road I am currently on in my attempts to downsize.  I know I am on the long road of recovery, and that I accept.  It is a daily reminder to remain on this narrow road.  I must remind myself of the goal that lays ahead, and continue to push towards that goal.  both deal with debt in my life . . . freeing myself from the slaver of financial debt as well as freedom from the weight that holds me down and back.  Well, enough of a rant for today . . . enjoy the moment . . . peace 

Here we are . . .

Here we are . . . Still above 300 lbs, but not by much. I can not believe I have been so out of it this past few weeks. Back to the Gym on monday, and feeling good about that. I want to be below 300 never to look back. I am feeling better from my sickness, still a little weak, but better. I am thankful to be back at school and with the students. Diana and I start facilitating a class tonight at church. I am excited about this opportunity. I got a i touch, and I can download some cool Podcasts. I am thankful to be able to think, and blog. I will write more soon. Peace

On sickness . . .

I hate being sick . . . let me be one of those ones that holler out the obvious . . . I know no one likes to be sick, but I really hate it. I hate the seclusion - me without people is not good. I need folks in my life . . . being a people persons in seclusion is like taking a fish out of water . . . I am finally feeling a little better and for that I am thankful . . . I want to talk to you . . . send me a note or something . . . peace

I get all up . . .

I do not know why this is, but I get all up in the energy and emotions at times about things I can not control . . . it is crazy, and to kick the cow on the way out, things I can control and are my responsibility, i some how allow myself the freedom of not dealing with that issue. Odd, I know, and perplexing at times. It is the old splinter, log in the eye story from the Gospels . . . Why is it that we can see someone else's fault and want to point them out the first moment we can, and we are so long suffering with our own foolishness . . . This is a bummer as I think about the things in my day. Look at it this way, I would like to think that that I am other minded, but all you have to do is drive with me for about five minutes to find out that I do think the world revolves around me. I hate being so selfish, but I am just so dang good at it . . . Have you ever been here? What do you do to combat this feeling? I need a little input . . . peace

100 days of my 365

almost day 100 photo
Originally uploaded by SoullooN

the first 100 days are now in the books. And I am almost 30 lbs less than I once was. I am at the door step of breaking 300 lbs. I can not wait. Taking a step each and every day in order to reach this goal. It has been over two years since I was under 300. I am tired and would love a hug today. However, I am doing well. Ran for the first time on the outdoor track with my boys last night. It was great. Weights and Eliptical right after school, then off to church - to learn about the Kingdom of Heaven . . . I have so much to learn. have a blessed day. Peace

fun . . .

Outtake
Originally uploaded by squeakypeach4

Bring on spring . . . I loved this wonderful photo . . . Peace

I need you . . .

send your love
Originally uploaded by milkysoldier

Believe it or not, i find life when i engage people . . . this photo is how I feel most of the time . . . Peace