July 15, 2011

Today is Friday . . . July 15, 2011. My son turned 15 yesterday, and Harry Potter had its opening for the final show . . . I am excited that my kids were able to go to the midnight showing last night . . . it sounds like they had a wonderful evening. I am blessed that my family is able to enjoy life . . . I am amazed at the time I live in . . . I know I am blessed and I am thankful. Many in our world do not have my life, and I know they feel blessed and thankful with the life they have . . .

Just the other day I was reading an article about a lady whose husband cut her nose and ears off because she ran away from his abuse . . . and in the article I was moved to tears to believe that such a thing could happend . . . and she still has a positive outlook on life . . . here is the link if you are interested . . . http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/lanow/2010/08/afghan-girl-whose-nose-was-cut-off-meets-with-doctors.html

What is holding me back?? I just do not know . . . I can not blow past this 300 lb wall . . . it is time for me to move . . . track, walk, go to the gym and blow past this wall . . . I am a thin man traped in my large body . . . I want out of this space that I have trapped myself in . . . it is crazy at times, but it is what is my life for this moment . . .

What is your largest learning issue at this momen? I am learning on several fronts . . .

how to be a good DAD and parent to my children . . .

How to be a loving, kind Husband to my wonderful wife of 23 years

how to be a thin me . . . to be the slim I am created to be . . . hahaha but really tears stream down my face at times

I also have a new friend in my life

A Canon DSLR Rebel XTi . . .

I am on the grow when it comes to photoing . . . I am blessed and thankful for this new friend . . . get ready to enjoy some new photos in the coming days and you are invited to stop by my flickr at: http://www.flickr.com/photos/11908041@N00/

know you are loved and prayed for today . . .

peace

Night time binge eating . . .

No purging from this guy . . . but eating at night when I am not hungry for food . . . but hungry for other things . . . well lets just say not counting these points . . . and that this past few days or weeks, I have returned to my old foolish life robbing ways . . . Wake up me . . . GET UP me . . . return to the new road that leads to health and life . . . Wow . . . I am hard on me at times . . . but I am telling you . . . why do we return to old ways that take us places we do not want to go . . . why do we default to the foolish so easily . . . Back on the wagon today . . . Looking for love in all the wrong places has grown my waist line and not lead me to my hearts greatest desire . . . so you know where I am at in my mind, heart and soul currently . . . Boy o boy . . . Hershey's Chocolate does taste so good, and puts my mind in a spin . . . but it does not fill the need or answer the call . . . One step at a time Sweet Jesus . . . you know when I taste and see that the Lord is good . . . it fills my love need and does not bulge my waist line . . . Need me some more Jesus, and less Lays . . . Can I get an Amen up in this house . . .  Someone picking up what I am laying down . . . Come up out of the slavery of Egypt and enter into the Promise land . . . Get on up . . .

Knee surgery and other things . . .

So yes, I did have my knee surgery on Thursday. So far the recovery has been ok . . . I am ready to get some PT by next week. It is hard to be stuck not doing anything or something like that . . . When I got home from surgery I had 4 plugs that were not working. So with the help of my neighbor we found the problem. My tester called the problem ground and hot wire reversed. S I had to figure that out and it ment that I had a nuteral wire that had come undone in my electrical string. So found the problem repaved some recipticals and made sure the wires were tight and retested and all was good.
Then that night Ben and I watched some tv and then well stayed up till 6:30 am and then slept till 8 am. I am not sleeping well. I do not know what is up . . . Maybe the meds are keeping me up or something . . . I am tired, and I am ready for some sleep come now . . . Well, it will be all good, on to the rest of the movie . . . Rudy
Peace

Change is all around . . .

So as this year at Novi High School winds down . . . the seniors have left the building and the class of 2011 has now graduated . . . Just today the future freshmen came to the HS for their visit . . . It is nice to see all the new students . . . Among them is my son.  This is such a blessing, but at the same time a reminder that my life story is changing chapters.  I will miss several of the students that have now moved on . . . I anticipate the things I will learn as the new students come into our community . . .It is my prayer and hope that in my humble job I will have to opportunity to influence some students to seek truth and walk in wisdom as they move through these halls.  More to come as the days move forward . . . I want to take my blog from babbling to something of substance . . . Thinking, dreaming, contemplating . . .

peace

Get Your SKIP ON . . .

Greetings my friends . . . I cam upon this great site about Skipping . . . why did we ever stop being a child in our wonderment of life . . . Who robbed us or what robbed us of this joy?  So I encourage you to stop by the I Skip website and let me know what you think . . .
Peace

All Smiles . . .

Seniors last day at Novi High School is tomorrow . . . and on senior skip day last week I ordered a super large pizza for Benito's for us . . . This is a happy friend enjoying a slice . . . Being a paraprofessional brings many students into my life, or me into their lives what ever way you want to view it . . . I always find these last few days difficult . . . I know and understand fully the process that each of us goes through in this journey called life in school, especially High School.  High School this past 13 years has been a very transit place . . . it is wonderful to watch kids grow up, learn and then move on . . . but at the same time . . . I will miss these students.  So as a note to all the seniors I have known . . . I say . . . bye, enjoy and keep in touch . . . peace

Sadness

Sadness
Originally uploaded by Azchael

This is how I feel today . . . my heart is heavy to its soul. Yes it does happen . . . life has a way of moving in at times and pressing. This thing is huge and beyond me . . . I work hard to try to make it better . . . but it is still the same . . . Grief over lost desire and hope flood my mind like my creek was full beyond its banks just yesterday after the hard rain . . . I want to move toward happiness and fulness again . . . I am blessed . . . I know that I am, and I am thankful . . . this is the odd part. I am stuck if you will, or lost, or at a loss . . . I just do not know what I am exactly . . . well there you have it . . . Blueness in my soul . . . God is still good and my trust is in Him - and yes, my heart is gray . . . Peace